I started of the week reading a play, reading monologues, blah, blah, blah. It was boring. No, worse then that it was tedious. So I asked myself, if I'm forced to do boring and tedious work from periods 1 through 6, why on earth would I choose to do it here? So, as I often do (remember I am indecisive), I changed my mind. I decided to revisit a project I had started at the end of last year. It was a risk, but I made a choice. I would just like to point out that I am not only making decisions now but also conquering my fears (only one blog post later and I'm already working towards solving my problem).
Not to get off topic but I would just like to say that I don't think the key is to solve my problem (I actually think that may be impossible) but to simply learn how to live with it. Kind of like an incurable disease. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?
Back on the topic of inspiration, I'm pretty sure I am experiencing the best kind of inspiration there is. I am inspired by the project, nothing more, and nothing less. The simple act of doing my work is inspiring. It's a cool feeling. To catch you up, my new project is performing a scene with 6 different characters, all portrayed by me. The character's and dialogue are all from movies, all I did was arrange it in some sort of a coherent pattern. Even just writing about it gets me excited. I want to film. All I want to do is film.
Goodbye, I'm going to go film.
"I would just like to say that I don't think the key is to solve my problem (I actually think that may be impossible) but to simply learn how to live with it."
ReplyDeleteYes! When the problem is intrinsic to who we are, in never goes away, and we are stuck with it. But we learn not to let it get in our way. We move forward in spite of ourselves.
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