Once again, it's September. Promise, expectations, and pollen are in the air, and at the moment I'm not quit sure which of the three are the cause for my stuffy nose and headache.
I don't think enough time has passed for things to be going well or going badly, so I guess it's indifferent? Which of course is impossible because nothing about art is indifferent, especially acting. So here I am once again, unable to make up my own mind for fear that my choice will be the wrong one. Indecisive and scared; it's a hell of a combination. Feels a little like deja vu doesn't it? I'm sitting in the same chair, making the same excuses as I have been for the past two years. Although I think I have one advantage now that I did not have before, I now the solution. Acceptance. Now, I'm not sure what good it's going to do me knowing this if I can't put my words into action (if a 1,000 words are worth a picture, then 100,000,000 words are worth an action). Well, if nothing more it's a good place to start. It's basically just applying a principle we learned in acting class. Whatever you are feeling, allow yourself to feel it. Don't fight it, accept it. If I'm feeling scared then fine, I'll be scared. I'll let it fill me up until every fiber of my being is filled with fear.
For a brief less vague update, I am currently reading Inherit the wind and intend on performing one or more monologues from it.
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